Just thinking..

While my hubby is gone I have lots of time to think about A LOT of things..I have always had a hard time expressing myself and talking about things. I know a lot of it has to do with the way I was raised.. The relationship I had with my mom, step-dad, and sibilings..I sometimes feel worthless. I often feel like a failure...Today we had our ward conference and we had the Stake Young Womens leaders come and teach the lesson. It was about temples and eternal families..What Sister Lundquist said hit me...It was a goal I set when I was younger because of the example my grandparents set for me..I blocked out and still block out a lot of childhood..but, the example my grandparents set for me about temple marriage made me set that goal for myself..I didn't date a lot when I was younger but, I did make the goal that I wanted to be married in the temple...I am so glad I made that goal..I am so greatful for Kalani..I didn't have any of my family that was able to come into the temple with me but, we did have some of his family and our friends with us. I can remember that special day that happened 13 years ago. I am so greatful for the knowledge I have of eternal families.. I know our family isnt perfect and I have many weak areas I need to work on..I know I need to believe in myself more and I know I need to be a better mom and wife. I am so greatful for our savior Jesus Christ and for the atonement.